[ greyweed ] -- and the bored shall inherit the earth...

Just last Saturday I attended the Flame Monthly Crowd held at Congo Grill in Ortigas. After all the advertising and the text brigade that we did, only a few people showed up.

• Janice
  
• Beth
  
• Vanessa
  
• Roselle
  
• Irene
  
• Cherry
  
• Teresa
  

I was the only guy who came so I know it was gonna be a long night.

Earlier that day I met up with Teresa at the Graduate School entrance over at UST just because she won't be able to stay for the night's activities. When I got there I saw Janice lugging around Colayco Park, telling me that she has a class and we should wait for her before we met up with Vanessa. I left her with her classmates to get look for Teresa.

As I was standing by the Graduate School door, I saw her walking into the scene, with long hair and a college-student-on-a-vacation get up. I was warned weeks before by Cherry when she texted me, "...she looks prettier now..." but nothing could have prepared me for what I saw. She was not "pretty." That's an understatement. She was stunning. Seriously. We went up to the Grad Building because she was to meet up with someone, and then we proceeded to hang out by the Lover's Lane* where we stayed until Janice's class was over.

So after meeting up with Janice we headed for the Quezon Ave MRT Station where we were meeting Vanessa.

I AM SO PROUD OF VANESSA. Basta. She is attending a scriptwriting workshop and I'm insanely jealous because she is given an opportunity to break into the scene.

And along with Teresa, we then went straight to Congo Grill dinner. She was supposedly on her way home since she could not possibly stay out late...but ended up hanging out with us until 9:00pm because she wanted to wait for Cherry.

The night was both enjoyable and annoying.

It was supposedly a Welcome Home / Despidida Party for Wacko, since he got home for vacation and would be coming back to Cebu in two days' time. But no sign of him. He texted later that night that he had some family emergency to attend to. DANG. We haven't seen him for almost a year and it sure looks like we have to wait for another year before we ge a chance to see him again.

And so CHERRY and I spent the night mulling around BAYWALK, atlking about stuff and observing the natural mating pattern of the common Filipino ipis-dagat. Hwat a layp!


IT SUCKS!

So after almost three years I finally saw her. Charry texted me before that she looks prettier noe, but nothing could have prepared me...I felt my knees shake and I almost wilted when I saw her walking towards me. I didn't know what to do so I pretended I didn't see her.

So this is our new "relationship" now? We've been elevated from spending hours talking on the phone to shutting up when we're actually together. Isn't that just twisted?

Last night Cherry texted me again, saying that she's done some thinking...that I should try again and not be afraid this time to fail. I did some thinking of my own and I have made up my mind, though I'm not promising that I would stick to it, but at least I've made a decent, selfless decision.

No matter how much it hurts, I've decided that I will not make a move. In her situation it's easy for me to take advantage and end up with her, only because she thinks that no one else will take her in. She's still undergoing a lot of pain and is under the impression that since she already has a baby nobody would ever love her.

I will not make a move because I want her to realize that she is wrong- that she is a wonderful person with or without a child and there will be others. Maybe she does end up with a decent man or maybe I would be with someone else then I will understand that that is probably how it should be; because she'd with someone she loves not someone she voluntarily forced herself to be with for lack of options.

You may call me stupid. Heck, maybe I am, but I really don't care. We're talking about her happiness here, and that's something that shouldn't be taken for granted.

Until then I would have to wait. Again.