Two weeks ago I decided to head for Ortigas to submit my application for RX 93.1's Radio Idol. It had to be one of the hottest days so far during the BER months this year. So there I was walking along Emerald Avenue with my long-time friend JANICE, with my sweaty shirt on.

Personally, I had an epiphany while ambling around Ortigas. I've been an RX listener since high school (although I also listen to the rock station since RX has a terrible reception at home) since then and throughout college I would make demo tapes and submit them for RADIO1. I never got any calls, suffice to say I'm a six-year RADIO1 reject and I was having doubts about joining RADIO IDOL. Doubts about my own abilities.

So to make a long, dragging story short, I went in, passed my resume (sans ID picture/s), recorded 2 minutes of voice and headed home.

Yesterday morning, I heard on the radio the list of names who were gonna be judged and I was so psyched, because I was in it. The doubts were still there but nevertheless I went on my daily routine and waited till 7pm for the RADIO IDOL program to start.

Lo and behold! I passed...I'm moving on to LEVEL2!

But I have to admit, I'm still a little concerned whether I have a good, fighting chance to win, which is why I'm trying not to border on the idea of winning, yet I'm still struggling to keep what little optimism I have. And if you know me well enough, optimism isn't exactly my strong suit.

Next week will usher in the start of LEVEL2 of the radio reality show, and I am crossing my fingers, praying that I pass on to LEVEL3.

BEGINNING TO LIKE: "How To Save A Life" by THE FRAY

BEGINNING TO LIKE AGAIN: The Morning Rush with Chico and Delamar

BEGINNING TO NOTICE: MATISYAHU

BEGINNING TO HATE: Waking up at around 4:00am just to get to work on time

BEGINNING TO GET SICK OF: the monotonous schedule

BEGINNING TO MISS: Asia Agcaoili's kinky radio program

BEGINNING TO OBSESS: about the return of LOST-- I NEED MY LOST!

I took a break from the monotony of the artwork I keep on revising and did this.

And I just realized that all of the personal projects I was doing would have to be put on hold. The comic book script I was writing/drawing, the books I was planning to read, everything. Even the band caricatures I have stacked in my study table would have to wait. I no longer have as much time as I want...heck i don't even have enough time to sleep!